Just thinking..

I will just start by saying that I haven't fulfilled my purpose of writing more often on this blog, but I am posting right now, which is a step forward, haha.

Well right now it is raining, it always sounds much more intense than what it really is because of the trees that are close to my house and the fact that the thunder and lightening are quite intense. When I was little thunderstorms used to scare me to death but when I came to know the Lord they eventually made me feel comforted, as though I was hidden with the Lord in the storm. Now they are probably one of my favorite things when I don't have to go anywhere and I can stay home, especially at night time when I am getting ready to go to bed. Well like I said the thunderstorms here sound INTENSE. Truly the thunder makes a crackling noise through the air and the lightning lightens up the sky. It is very interesting because one of my favorite parts of the bible is in Rev 5 when it speaks of God the Father and how from his throne comes, thunder, rumbling and lightening. Though to see that it must be beautiful at the same time it has to be extremely scary and it makes you feel as though you are absolutely nothing. On top of that his voice is like the sound of mighty rushing waters. So though it must be a nerve wrecking thing to see, I think there is such peace in it to. This is one of the things that makes the Lord a Paradox in himself, He is both terrifying and glorious, All powerful and humble, right by your side but feels the whole earth. There truly is no one like him for that reason. And for all eternity we will get the opportunity to experience, see and live out these paradoxes of the Lord and his character, He really is so awesome and strange at the same time and for that I love him because I can relate to that. So in other words He made us to reflect part of who He is, that is beautiful.

The last thing I was just thinking about was how childish and immature I am. I have such a long way to go to reach perfection in Christ Jesus, to be like him. The fact that it still takes a while for me to die to things and I just can't forgive the person and I would much rather execute my justice instead of waiting on the Lord for him to do things in his will and in his timing. There isn't much I want to say on the topic, just that it isn't easy but at the same time I know dying to myself is possible with the Lord by my side. Well hopefully the next time I write I will be in the states.
Love you all!
Maya