Birthday Party

This is just one photo at the birthday party where I was Calypso. I'll try to but up a better one soon.

Oh and I was just wondering if you guys had any idea about what theme my birthday party should be. I know it's early but I want to be prepared. I'm thinking 80's but tell me what you think.

Mi vida y mis sentimientos (My life and thoughts)

So a new entry is way over due and being that I'm sick of grading papers and I'm waiting on laundry I thought now was the perfect time. The only question I have is where to begin because it's been a while, a long while. Well I think that I will start at the idea that I was thinking about coming home to stay after Christmas. I had this aching in my heart for the ones I loved for about 3 months, because I desperately needed their love and affection and to be able to love them in return. It's sooo funny the little things we take for granted. I mean friendships are not easy to come by and good ones are even more scarce, but the ones with the people who just know you inside and out are truly one in a million. So I know that I'm blessed because I have more than one of those friendships with such amazing people. ON top of that I missed my family and I wasn't in real fellowship here in Mexico so things were just rough really rough and I was longing for the simple things of life. For a while I thought that I just wanted to go back to the states and just work, and there is nothing wrong with this, but I know that it's not for me. I just wanted some serious stability and a more traditional life (not that any life is traditional, because there are always crazy turns in the road), but I realized that the root of it all was that I was lacking love in my life, true love. I missed laughing and being with people that made me feel comfortable. I missed late nights talking about nonsense or having a deep meaningful conversation that was birthed from a cartoon. I missed the easy conversations, not having to say anything but knowing I was appreciated. I missed just sitting there and feeling the love of others around me. It came to the point that I MAYA BEY set up a meeting with the pastor of my church, which isn't like me and in this meeting I almost cried. Well all I can say is that the Lord heard my cry and I just got a strong desire to start spending more time in the CDO (because my time had dwindled) and with the friends that the Lord had place into my life here in Mexico. I was just ready to give up but he wouldn't let me. Know I must admit that in only one week I have been re energized and I am ready to come back for another year. Yet this still depends on other factors, like money-the airfare prices are killing me.

Secondly since this whole ordeal, the morning prayer set that I am a part of has been phenomenal. It's perfect just me and my friend Ben and we worship God and spend time sharing the word of God to each other. There have been so many revelations that the Lord has revealed to me over this past week and I feel so blessed because I know it is all by his grace. He alone knows the hunger in my heart and my true desires and I have found him faithful time and time again. How foolish I was to doubt his LOVE and PROMISES for me. Due to this I have also been spending more time in his word which is such a blessing because it feeds me. Truly the Lord has shown me such grace and mercy and I want to honor that by being obedient to his will. As believers we are forever under his grace in mercy but sometimes we still follow are own will and because of it we can miss out on taking part in God's plans. I've just come to a place in my life that I don't want to miss out on the great things that he is offering me to take part in. Whatever I might have to give up or put on hold to be a part of what he is doing I will do it, because I know in my heart of hearts that if I don't I would feel so disappointed, sad and forever wishing that I took advantage of the opportunity when it was given to me. So yeah I'm desperate for Jesus and everyday is not easy but he knows my one desire and that's him.

Thirdly I guess will be what happened this afternoon. I was looking on facebook, which is such an uncommon activity for me, and I noticed how the lives of everyone I knew and know are changing. It seems that everyone I know is fulfilling such great dreams and desires that they had. To me it's just so surreal. I mean people are becoming doctors, lawyers, wives, husbands, parents, models, actors and so on and so forth. The whole ordeal just made me sad. I started to compare my life with theirs (which was the first mistake) and I ended up crying. I felt like I was wasting my life here in Mexico. I too at one time had a great ambition to become a doctor and/or a medical anthropologist but unlike everyone else, I find myself here in Mexico being 22 years old waiting for something great to happen. Well I can hear the world's answer now, "STOP WAITING AND DO SOMETHING!!!!!" But this isn't the answer at all. I know now that it was just the enemy trying to belittle what I'm doing. Prayer is the most powerful thing as Christians we can possibly do, and everyone is called to do different things. Yet society has taken my role and called it pointless, useless, a waste of time. For a moment I believed that lie and I felt so low, as though I wasn't doing anything here. Well the truth is, that I am building treasures in heaven, treasures that will not perish. This at times is truly difficult because I may never see the fulfillment of the time spent in prayer, but I need to trust that God's word is true and that he is faithful to fulfill it. All I can say is that it was difficult and that it hit me like a ton of bricks. My life will never be normal and though in ways this makes me sad I know that I wouldn't want it any other way. Dying to yourself is not easy and I'm learning how to do this one step at a time, after all there is a price to pay to go deeper into God, your life.

So yeah if you guys could prayer for the church of Mexico and more specifically the one here in Cuernavaca that would be great, mostly for wisdom, discernment and power in Christ. Also can you pray that I would do the Lords will and that he would provide where I need it. Our God and King is faithful and holy, I love him and will praise him all my days.

I LOVE YOU ALL SOOOOO MUCH!!!! I HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!!!! Cuidense y Manda un brazo y beso. (Take care and I send you a hug and kiss.)

P.S. I was Calypso from Pirates of the Caribbeans for a costume birthday party, so I will post those pictures ASAP as well as others.

Persecution in Orissa, India

This is a excerpt from an email sent to me from YWAM (Youth With A Mission), written by two of the leaders in India. I just wanted to post it to ask that believers will pray for what is going on over there.

A militant Hindu priest and 4 of his attendants, who were zealously going around the villages of Orissa and 'reconverting' people back to Hinduism, were gunned down by unknown assailants in Central Orissa last weekend. Immediately the Christians were blamed. The cry rose up...'Kill the Christians!' And the horror began.... In the past 4 days, we have first hand witness to hundreds of churches being blown up or burned and many, many dozens of Christian tribals have been slaughtered. For no other reason than they bear the name of Christ.
Night and day I have been in touch with our Good News India Directors spread across 14 Dream Centers in Orissa... They are right in the middle of all this chaos. In Tihidi, just after the police came to offer protection, a group of 70 blood-thirsty militants came to kill our staff and destroy the home. They were not allowed to get in, but they did a lot of damage to our Dream Center by throwing rocks and bricks and smashing our gate, etc. They have promised to come back and 'finish the job.' Our kids and staff are locked inside and have stayed that way with doors and windows shut for the past 3 days. It has been a time of desperately calling on the Lord in prayer.
More police have come to offer protection. In Kalahandi, the police and some local sympathizers got to our Dream Center and gave our staff and kids about 3 minutes notice to vacate. No one had time to even grab a change of clothes or any personal belonging. As they fled, the blood thirsty mob came to kill everyone in the building. We would have had a mass funeral there, but for His grace. In Phulbani, the mob came looking for Christian homes and missions. The local Hindu people, our neighbors turned them away by saying that there were no Christians in this area. So they left.
We had favor. The same thing happened in Balasore. All our dream centers are under lock down with the kids and staff huddled inside and police outside. The fanatics are circling outside waiting for a chance to kill. Others were not so fortunate. In a nearby Catholic orphanage, the mob allowed the kids to leave and locked up a priest and a computer teacher in house and burned them to death. Many believers have been killed and hacked into pieces and left on the road.... Even women and children. ....... Every one of our GNI directors that I have spoken to said: 'We stay with our kids.... We live together or die together, but we will never abandon what God has called us to do.' More than 5000 Christian families have had their homes burned or destroyed. They have fled into the jungles and are living in great fear waiting for the authorities to bring about peace. But so far, no peace is foreseen.
This will continue for another 10 days.... Supposedly the 14 day mourning period for the slain Hindu priest. Many more Christians will die and their houses destroyed. Many more churches will be smashed down. The federal government is trying to restore order and perhaps things will calm down. We ask for your prayers. Only the hand of God can calm this storm. None of us know the meaning of persecution. But now our kids and staff know what that means. So many of our kids coming from Hindu backgrounds are confused and totally bewildered at what is happening around them. So many of their guardians have fled into the Jungles and are unable to come and get them during these trying times.


Pray for the believers in Orissa, India. They are under attack, literal attack and persecution. May the mighty hand of our Christ come in and rescue them and deliver them. Pray that the glory of Christ will shine over them and over that place. Pray also that his presence will reign over all of the wicked and evil planes of the enemy. May Jesus Christ be glorified and the will of our Father God be done. I declare, ask and pray all these things in Jesus Name. ~Amen

If you want to look more into the subject you can check out the article done by BBC News and also by The Christian Post.