I was reading Jess' bblog today and I could honestly say that I could relate. God has taken everything away from me and it has been one heck of a ride, extremly fun when I just let Him drive. Still their are times when I would like things to just work out, please work!!!! So, so far I have lost two cell phones, bought an alarm clock which SUCKSSSSSSSS, and a watch with one button that you have to hit with a hammer for it to work. Truly all of these things where fine, they're not the best thing that have happened to me but I'm okay. Of course I was fine until the power cord to my laptop JUST STOPPED WORKING! Truly this is too much, my computer is my only menas to do just about anything. I use it to tutor, to talk to friends and family, to read books, etc. It's not as though I'm idiolizing it (at least I hope not), it's just that life just got 1000x more difficult. This would be all good and dandy if I was still in the states and I could call sony and have them ship me another one. Not to mention I could probably use a friends computer (which I am fortunate to be doing right now). Well if you didn't know already, your warranty only applies to the country you live in. So the extra 100 or so dollars I paid does not work here in good 'ol Mexico. I guess many people might think, well why are you complaining. Well let me tell you. Power cords ARE EXTREMELY EXPENSIVE!!!!!!! It just made me realize how much it sucks not to have money. I try and I try but yet I feel like I'm still in a hole. When I try to save here comes another issue another problem and honestly it's not fair and it sucks. Now, unless Sony does something when I call them I will have to use the money I'm going to recieve for a power cord and the next check for my plane ticket. God I'm just sick of this truly. Something I would like to be blessed with are finances. I know I'm doing Gods will but sometimes it just all seems so unfair. Gosh could it all just work!!!!!!! Talking about something I don't want to deal with, yet, I have no choice.
Still I must say I don't know where this complaint fits, maybe a mixture of both. Well I'm going to go pray, it's probably the best thing for me right now. Before I do I just wanted to say that maybe it isn't the cord at all it's just life and it seems to be getting to me. I think how I feel right now is best written by David Silkner, it's just I don't know how to do that, so when things fall apart I feel myself falling right along with them.
"I am trembling, but hungry. I am weak, but resolved within myself. I am carnal, immature, and foolish. Yet I have this advantage - by grace I see the way ahead, and the destination that is alive as the dream of my heart. I know what I long for, more than money, comfort, honor, fame, and even the power and blessing of God. I know what I want my life to be about, and I will fight the good fight with the best of my strength to lay hold of something more than flowery prayer language and the ability to teach a few scripture passages. I want God.
One thing I desire, that will I seek."
Father help my heart not to sway over small things b/c it seems that I am being broken down to nothing, so that I might know the sufferings of my savior and grow in my love for him.
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Hi Maya!!
1) It's so awesome that you got your own slot at CDO!!
2) Let me tell you, I know how you feel!! I am weary as well, from everything in my life always going wrong and nothing ever going right. In this season I am dealing with it much better than I have in the past, by the grace of God.
What Sliker wrote is so good, I have nothing to add...all I can say is Amen, both to what he wrote and the prayer you wrote. You're in my prayers!
Thanks Jen, your in mine too. Man hopefully our paths cross sometime so we could talk and pray and whatever else that's fun to do.
hey maya - would it be cheaper to have the power chord shipped to our apt. and then pay for it to be shipped to mexico? i'm just wondering b/c maybe the warranty will still apply if it's shipped to the address here and then add the cost of shipping it to mexico might be cheaper then paying for it without the warranty to be shipped to mexico. let me know soon b/c it would have to come here in the next month b/c we're out at the end of the month.
i am praying for you - it sounds like God has continually been providing for you when you most need it, so i hope and pray that you are continued to be amazed!!
You know, you felt bad about posting complaints, but I must tell you it was a blessing in perfect timing for me! I was just complaining to Mike about how I often feel alone in Joe and I's financial difficulties. I feel like we'll be drowning in debt forever, yet all the things we desire to do are in line with what we feel God has called us to do. Why does He allow it to be so hard when it's His will? Because, I guess, who wouldn't follow Him if it was easy? The hard part is following Him when nothing is a given and nothing is taken for granted. I totally understand, even though it's on different magnitude... Thanks so much for posting!
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