Oracion no es una broma sino es poder que Dios nos da. (Prayer isn't a joke, rather it is power that God gives us)

Wow, so I've been reading this book given to me on loan by my friend Benjamin who started CDO Cuernavaca but that's another amazing story. Well the book is called, "Bridal Intercession: Authority in Prayer through intimacy with Jesus." I must admit that I'm not one to read a christian book, but this is powerful. Every chapter the Lord has spoken to me in such a profound way. If you're wondering more about the book, the back says:
Bridal Intercession is a book for such times as this, approaching the topic of intercessory prayer from the perspective of the Church's place as the Bride of Christ. Rather than seeing prayer as an issue-oriented, anxiety-based exercise that produces fatigue, Gary Wiens presents prayer as joyful and romantic communion between the Lover and His Beloved. The approach is thoroughly biblical, utilizing the stories of God's relationship with His people as the foundation for the contemporary call to intercessory prayer.
Can I say WOW!!! I have been hit so hard with what I have been learning in this book, and I know it is the Lord because at the same time things are occurring in my life to help me understand what is being said in the book better before I even begin to read the chapter that usually corresponds. For example I was dealing with anxiety about somethings today and I begin to read the chapter titled "The Authority of Intimacy", and the author uses the story of Ester and the King to express his point. Can I say that this went straight to my heart and the situation I was dealing with and for the next hour or so I basically wept before the Lord, weeping of hurt and weeping of praise. All I can say is the Lord has been so amazing and faithful and there is none like him. Thanks and Praise be to God because seriously with out him who knows where I would be. The best thing about it is that I don't have to worry because he loves me, I am his daughter and he finds me precious, I can go before the king, just like Esther. I know my life and heart are in his hands and I trust that he will do what is best for me, and will keep me even though I may not know how.

So yea, I guess this isn't really an update, just an opportunity to say how awesome God has been and how grateful I am for his relationship. I wish you all the best, and I recommend this book, but only in the Lord's timing of course. Love you all.

Casa de Oracion -HOP

Yea I guess as time goes by blogs can eitherget more exciting or slowly die. I don't know where I should put this post becasue I don't have anything really profond to say. I guess I wanted to talk about my time here at CDO. In a nutshell it has been incredible. The more time I'm here the more time I want to be here, God has just been so sweet and loving me in the exact way I needed. I thought Valentine's day would be hard, but it wasn't since I was allowed to spend time with my Valentine Jesus. The Lord is truly growing me and stretching me by changing my perspective on life and what is truly important. I was just talking to God today on the way to CDO and I was thinking about something personal and I just said to God, Lord if whay you have for me is the complete opposite of what I thought and wanted bring it on because I want you even more. It's just been great and the people here are amazing as well. I just love it and I feel right at home which is an answer to prayer. For example I came to CDO to pray but we ended up changing the whole set up of the room (I must admit I didn't do much), but the best part was just hanging out with the guys. As always I was the only female but it was cool,it reminded me of being back in Cleveland and that made me soo happy, b/c I must admit that I miss my guy friends as much as my female friends, so today was a nice blessing. All in all me encanta la casa de oracion (I love the house of prayer), not all has it been a place where the Lord has met and touched me but it has been a home where I feel like the people are family. So thank you God, yet I cherish that saying/song. Make new friends but keep the old, one is silver the other is gold!!!! Love and miss you all from the bottom of my heart.

Jane Austen

So I started to watch the movie the Jane Austen Book club but I didn't get the chance to finish, yet I know that the women find out their lives aren't so different from the lives of the Austen women. And just recently I thought wow, you know what my life isn't that different from them as well. I know that when I watched the films of the famous novels I mocked these lovely women because of how simple their lives where, but you know what, my life is not so different. I like to take turn abouts, talk to my friends, find out the recent news, walk in gardens, go to dance parties, and spend time with my family, so are these women really so different. In fact they were each brave in their own way, that their period would allow, talking out against pride or choosing love over money. These may seem like simple task today but are they really because our society still chooses money over love and supports pride. So I know that now I want to try and become like one of these great fictional characters and stand for what I can, though it might be more fitting to our times, like standing for Christ in the middle of a barrio or choosing to work for nothing because the Lord has sent me to a far off country. Yet whatever it is I think I have a lot to learn from these women and I will try my best to do so.

The Lord has given me life

Well I know it has been close to two weeks since my last post but I hope everyne will forgive me for the delay, I just didn't have the energy to write anything. Well I have two things that I want to talk about, one is a lesson god is teaching me and the other is an insert from my journal.

1. So basically lately I have been feeling really down or lonely because I miss my friends and my family, and I truly miss those one on one conversation I had with people that allowed me to express how I feel and what God is doing in my life. Without that life has been a little hard but the Lord has been faithful. I feel that since I have been here God has been tearing down walls of the house that I have built with my own hands so that I can become truly bare before him and come into the house that he has created for me. Today one of the ways he showed me this was by showing me that I have a lot to learn about love. I walked to CDO today and it takes me about 35/40mins to get there. When I arrive the doors are locked, I get instantly upset to the point that I am about to cry because I'm hot, tired, and all I wanted to do was pray. Someone was supposed to be there at this time for prayer. So i sat down and I was getting ready to read a little before I went back home only to here the sound of someone opening the door. It turns out someone was coming they were just running late and I felt so ashamed becasue how upset I got over something so little. I went into 1 Corinthians 13, the love chapter and it says, LOVE is not easily angered, yet I was. Love covers all things and only by growing in my understanding of love will i truly become more like Christ and that means being patient and not allowing anger to rise up in me, I will trust the Lord and all is will fall in to place.

2. Journal Entry, Feb. 6, 2008 5pm at CDO
I laid my head down to sleep and when I woke I found you there. I found my heart lifted and a light burning. A sense of joy where sadness once lay. I could only say that it was you Lord that sang a song over my soul. You saw my sadness and gave me life for my ugly ashes. I thought I died but then I heard you call my name, "My Maya, My Love, My dear, come to me and walk by my side and hold on to my hand, give up not yet but hold on a little longer." Weak I am from the night, yet I feel the Lord hold my fragile body and heal my wounds. The darkness has faded and now comes forth the light. My voice can not express my thanksgiving to the fullest, but it is as though a spring flows from my heart.
"...behold the darkness has departed! I will be a shield maiden no longer, nor vie with the great riders, nor take joy only in the songs of the slaying. I will be a healer, and love all things that grow and are not barren. (LOTR, Eowyn)"
Thank you my Lord, for this I long so desperately, my soul breaths it when there are no words to say. Your hand has reached into the dark places and you have saved me from the darkness of my soul.

Well I hope that explains things a little if not and you want to know more shoot me an email. Les extrano (I miss you all).